I am humbled by the trust others place in me. It is a reflection of the worthiness that at times I do not see and am surprised when others do. I remember when I learned to drive (I was late to the driving game being 28 years old) and obtained my license in Bermuda. I was so nervous that after the test I literally became sick. When I recovered and returned back to work, I drove one of my older sons to school. I was so nervous having him in the car and had a laser focus on the road and a death grip on the steering wheel. About 10 minutes into the drive, I relaxed a little and looked over at him. He was calmly sitting and watching the scenery as it passed. I marveled at his peacefulness. I had told him before we set off how unsure I was about this driving thing. It didn't phase him. Unprompted at some point before reaching his school, and as if reading my thoughts he simply said, you are doing great Mum! His confidence was astonishing and yet also served to calm me. Similarly, yesterday I was agitated and frustrated at circumstances. My poor husband was the recipient of some very unkind words. Before he left for work, I apologised for my behaviour. He simply replied, its ok I will always love you! His words and the fact that he did not respond negatively to my own bad mood, modeled for me his level of faithfulness in our relationship. I learn how to practice trustworthiness from the examples others demonstrate for me. I may also lean into the fact that I need not shrink from being worthy of this trust, but instead allow it to blossom and strengthen my own trustworthiness.
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