After an emotional family meeting a couple of weeks ago, my mind has been on my boys. After revelations and truth telling, it is apparent that I have been reluctant to lean into trust. As I read on this card what trust entails and its practices, I see that I have been second guessing, interrogating and acting in a controlling manner toward them. They have given me certain assurances and now my work is to offer them the space to be trustworthy. I know the pain of difficult experiences linger in my heart. Shifting this pain is where my focus ought to be. Asking myself, what is it that this experience is offering me to learn as a parent, as a person? The answer is immediately apparent this morning that trust is what I have to learn. If it is I desire unity above all else in my family then my boys deserve not to be nagged, but praised for the efforts they are making. They have earned the right for me to give up the love of power for the power of love. I know that I fear for their futures, I want them to be confident, productive members of society, and develop and express their full potential. I am not the one to bring this about but kind words, gentle encouragement and acknowledging the wonderful virtues I see in them will enable them to see this in themselves. Trust involves relying on divine assistance. If the current state of affairs has a purpose beyond my control, shouldn't I accept it? Who am I to say what should and should not be? In allowing trust to heal these residual fears, I see how my strength may be renewed.
Well said!