Am I willing to invest completely in my life's purpose? This is the question that came up for me as I read this card after what was an emotional day yesterday. Investing completely means giving my all, being all in and risking whatever it is I am. It is unnerving to be able to give myself so wholeheartedly and unreservedly. It also causes me to be curious about my hesitation. Behind my hesitation lurk the usual fears - failure, rejection, not mattering etc. As I bring these characters into the light, I see that in giving of myself entirely, naturally involves losses. I will be give of my time, my resources, my possessions and personal comfort. If I have taken the necessary conviction to discern my purpose in life, isn't it worth it? These losses are the purging of what is lower, that I can learn to willingly offer up for something more valuable. The task for me is really taking in the value of my purpose. Truly taking stock and cataloguing the numerous benefits, tangible and intangible, that are inherent in a worthy purpose. It is when the difficult things happen, those wounds that are inflicted on my tender vulnerabilities or question whether I am enough, when I doubt if this path is worth it. I am reminded by the practices of sacrifice that the dream I am bringing into reality is of value to those whom I have the bounty to engage. More fundamentally, it is from my heart. I do see things differently from others and the world is big enough for all of us to co-exist and prosper. Here I stand, ready and willing to risk anything and everything for something I care about passionately.
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