My coaching course feels like tremendous effort. My enthusiasm for it waned about a month ago and I have lost the will to carry on. The presenter's voices are like shards in my ears and I have little to no motivation to complete the assignments and practices. A lot of the material seems to be repeating what was shared in the free course and not substantially adding to what I feel may be of use to me in practice. These were the thoughts that swirled in and around my head prior to my virtues pick.
[I digress momentarily to encourage you to check out the new and improved Virtues Project website here - such a joy to navigate with beautiful pictures and user friendly appearance.]
Perseverance was exactly what the doctor ordered for my mood today to give me the pick up I need to overcome the seemingly insurmountable emotional obstacles that are barring me from moving on with this course. It was like an emotional shaking that took the edge off of the paralysing effect these thoughts can have on me when they are at such high intensity. The very second sentence encouraged me to finish what I have started no matter what the obstacles may be. It reminded me that there was a point, some 5 months ago, when I decided that this was the path that I chose to pursue. Going back and visualising those reasons was a little difficult as my brain wanted to fight and say it's too hard and really not necessary right now. This is where I currently am, the petulant child in me screaming "But I don't want to" and my wiser self looking on with the measured and assured glance my mother often cast my way when she knew I just needed a gentle nudge to get on with it. Notwithstanding the lack of enthusiasm, I started on the challenge that was set by the course today and have set myself a goal to complete it. I know that as this course has an emphasis on positive intelligence, that this is exactly what I need to move myself back into a more emotionally balanced state. One where the doing of everyday tasks will not seem like such a chore and a sense of peace and calm may descend in my world once more.
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