Taking time to write this at 1pm in the afternoon as the day has just gotten away from me. There is another reason why I decided to write this now as I just had a moment of impatience. I am hurrying my husband up on his day off so that he can go out and do errands with me. I realise that is the opposite of what I decided to practice today. Patience was the theme of my meditation this morning and I decided it would be the virtue for my day as I have much to learn. On this journey of reclaiming ordered eating, I need patience to sift through the avalanche of thoughts that assail me every moment. Pause is needed to be curious about a thought, challenge its validity and halt my rush to follow it through by way of believing it or inviting in negative feelings or turning to food, binge television watching or standing in judgement of any and everything. Patience requires quiet, stillness, calm, peace, restfulness and listening. Writing this entry is my pause, my moment for reflection to remember to be gentle in my tone, soft with my gaze and loving with my heart. There is no need to rush, so I inquire here about the thoughts that make everything so urgent. My hubby is entitled to his day off and I can help him relax.
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