It took me a while to figure out how nobility is relevant to me today but eventually it came to me. I am planning on visiting a friend today who I have not seen for a few months, more importantly who I have not seen since I gained all my weight back. She is a former BLE buddy and I am embarrassed to show her how far I have fallen. I have gained 60 pounds and this has driven me to stay away from her not wanting to visit. But I see how these visits are not about me. I have to put my ego aside and remember that it brings her joy to speak to me and I was filled up by speaking with her. I must keep faith with my true value as a spiritual being. I am the same person on the inside. I must not visit her and criticise myself for being this way and not another, but share the story of my journey and apologise for being so very selfish. My reason for staying away was because I was in the food and then I was in Israel. I will not be following the path of least resistance today and waiting until such time as my weight has gone down significantly. I will show up because I want to and I miss her. I can treat myself with dignity by admitting my mistake, sharing with her the steps I am taking to remedy the situation. I was asked yesterday what I have learned and I was at a loss to describe what I had learned. I will be taking the time to do a teachable moment exercise and self companion myself.
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