I missed my virtues post yesterday on account of succumbing to an inordinate amount of fear. It was probably a cumulative dose of anxiety and fear that had been racking up for sometime and caused me to run for the hills, mistakenly believing I could outrun it. You see, I continue to suffer from this illusion that I am meant to be perfect. I know there is constant striving to do better, be better and I must make the effort to do my best. My brain though seems to turn against me and want to critique this effort, compare my strivings to others and the result is I feel beaten down. I read the humility card and what strikes me is that my only job, in the face of all the many lemons in the world, is to give my very best. And after I do that I must trust that it is enough and it will get me through. A friend sent me an inspiring quotation about the only obstacle being in the way of my achievements is me. Obstacles are also an illusion I conjure to stall progress. Practicing humility means that I need to relinquish my grip on perfectionism and cling instead to resilience. This is how I get better, how I learn and thrive.
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