Forbearance

acceptance, patience, forgiveness...oh my!

The challenge set today for building my mental fitness is to anticipate saboteur contagion. I have been tasked to be aware when I may feel negative energy coming at me from others and to instead engage in mental fitness exercises to interrupt my own saboteur from tangling with other people's saboteurs. This will be a challenge for me just thinking about it and I have been tested this morning already. My Gmail account froze on me for some unexplainable reason and I could not access any of my emails on my computer. This was a few minutes before my dawn prayers group was to meet. I had been asked to share some documents. I could not access them. I jumped on the zoom call and was immersed in the prayers that the group were sharing. The soothing music that was being shared settled me somewhat, although I played a tape in my head of giving a Google administrator a distinct piece of my mind. I was spinning a persuasive argument as I have been a loyal Gmail customer for over fourteen years... didn't this count for something? During the course of this mental conversation, I did consider how I would have to accept the reality that I would have to upgrade to a paid storage account with Google to preserve my account status. After the dawn prayers call concluded, I tried my account once more and all was well. I could pull up my account, send and receive emails once more. I realised as I read this virtue card that I had instinctively settled into forbearance by accepting these trying circumstances. I will be continuing to encourage myself to construct a force field of forbearance today as I strive to call on self-restraint and forgiveness in the face of what I may perceive as negativity on the part of others. I can learn from my Google experience and take a moment to pause, say a prayer, think about action I may wish to take before rushing in and saying or doing something that I may later regret. After all we all make mistakes, even Google!