Moving from day to day, unaware of what the future will bring, causes me to rely on my baser instincts to survive. To do what I need to do to to ensure the wellbeing of my family. Work is non existent for me at this time, so I have been feeling compelled to accept offers to do work that will generate a little money that will allow me to reduce the burden on my husband. I have been quick to accept things and then as I reflect on the tasks that I am being called to perform, there is gross imbalance between the activity and the amount of remuneration. Times are hard, it is a survival skill to bring about austerity measures and to want to assist people where one has the ability to do so. Dignity calls me to recognise my own worth in the midst of struggling to survive. Additionally, to carry myself with respect and keep myself free of shame. This has been at the forefront of my mind these past few days and I have clung to this card, needing to put its practices into action and frustrated that I did not know quite how it fit into what I was experiencing. A conversation with my boys made me realise that I wanted to avoid being mistreated. People expect me to agree to what is being asked of me, because I always do. I do not take the time to evaluate the impact of exactly what it is I am being asked to do until I am actually doing it! My pattern is that I get resentful and it is then too late to make a change. Practicing dignity enabled me to share my truth with others. To not be swayed by the offer of a paltry sum of money to undertake work that would unnecessarily burden me. The honorable thing for me to do was to refuse, and it feels right.
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