Determination

Discerning intention to fuel dreams

When I drew this virtue card yesterday, I had a renewed sense of purpose and intention as I went about my day. I felt a sense of diligent attention to preparing for my class for children, in completing the homework provided in my study group and getting in a second yoga practice in the afternoon. This gave me a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction at the end of the day, but as I reflected on yesterday this morning I recalled a conversation I had with my boys as they were making dinner. My middle son posed the question; "Mum, what will you do after this quarantine?" He was genuinely interested and then he made a suggestion to get back into law. He and his younger brother completed a law module at school last semester and they have become familiar with legal system in Canada and in particular the practices prevalent in our city. What ensued was a spirited conversation of what they had learned and observed and how easily I could fit myself into the legal community. I found myself being drawn in and swept up in their enthusiasm. I have been on the fringes of re-entering law. A unpleasant experience in the past has me questioning my conviction and my abilities. I have been doing the inner work around this and yet residual doubts cause me hesitation to move resolutely in that direction, though there is a tacit willingness to do so. One of the practices of determination is being clear about what I want to accomplish. It was definitely a sign that the boys initiated the direction of the conversation yesterday. I cannot ignore that the prospect of helping people has a very strong pull on my heart. In the past, I have experienced the confirmations that flow from setting my path in a direction that enables me to be of use to the world. I would like to centre any future path I take to take into consideration what the world needs and how I may apply my skills and talents in that direction. I have some more thinking to do in establishing this path as a goal. The remaining time of sheltering at home will give me space to really question and seek these answers.