I love this line from a song by India Aire: Life is going to hurt but it is meant to be felt. When I let that hurt control me is when things go awry for me in life. I experienced this for a period of about two weeks very recently. I sought to numb those hurt feelings in a vain attempt to avoid them. I see now with the practices of detachment, I could step back and seek to look at things objectively. This is hard when I am in amongst what feels like a violent maelstrom of emotions. As I reflect on that time and seek to learn the inevitable lessons and gifts that I may discern from that experience, I think that I could have pushed passed those powerful forces that were drawing me inward to isolate and cocoon myself, to stretch out and connect with those I love who may have awarded me with another perspective on the pain I was feeling and thus enabled me to change my negative and despondent thinking. This is easy to write about and look back to glean the aha moments but how do I make it an action for the future? I am looking forward to the fasting period for Baha'is that begins on 1 March. It is a time for fasting from the consumption of food and drink during the daylight hours but most importantly it is time to draw nearer to God through prayer and remembrance. As I grow older I see how this powerfully potent nineteen days is a time for me to address issues such as I have discussed above. To look inward, strive and seek to grow detachment exponentially to be a shield that will assist me to weather the inevitable storms that lie up ahead. Had I not had this experience, I would not be able to awaken to the knowledge that I can practice contentment with what ever happens as it is part of this life that I live. It is all mine to feel and love.
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