The question I asked this morning was how do I bring about feeling completely worthy and whole in my life. The answer was detachment and immediately I understood. I took some time to shine the light on myself and have a look on myself. I attach to my negative feelings to such an extent that I give them the reigns to control me. I have a hard time letting go, looking objectively and thinking that I can change things, when I have no control whatsoever. I had a look at how I have been parenting (a fertile ground to view my mistakes) over the last few days. I realise I have been having difficulty in detaching from some of the decisions my boys have been making. I listen to them and find myself lost in a wave of what I think they should or should not be doing or not doing that I am actually not listening anymore. And then I wonder why they as frustrated that I do not understand. As a result I am very reactive, experiencing waves of unnecessary anger. It is quite therapeutic to be able to express it here, look at what I have typed and set about making a plan to practice detachment. It all begins right here, having the humility to admit my mistakes, the courage to learn from them and resist the need to interfere in the spiritual lessons of others. I have a sixth sense that this will lift me up to experience my worthiness.
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