The longer I held on to this card the heavier the accountability tests became. These tests were in all shapes and forms from parenting to food, daily routines and service. As each situation arose thoughts of the practices on this card surfaced. Some of those practices pulled me through the tests. To others I threw my hands up and succumbed to heedlessness, until the practice beckoned again and offered me a helping hand to resume walking. I found time this morning to jump in and write again with no real particular events to outline but with a sense of gratefulness that I held on to this card to get me through what was been a hard week. This card makes me sit up straighter and strive to be the best version of myself in situations that I face. It is also really difficult to reach the standard to which these practices call me, but it is comforting to know that they are there for my safety, protection and sanity - even when they feel impossible. Am I on the other side of these test? Never! But this round has left me a little bruised and weary so I need to regroup in my corner. The lessons will continue to come and I have to summon the fortitude and courage to face my mistakes and missteps. To pull them apart in reflection and assume responsibility for all choices. After all that is how I learn.
Woo hoo! Great to hear